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Friday, September 22, 2006
11:45 PM

was i being too sensitive or wad? i aint sure..but i chld feel my heart chill when he answered my call..he sounded fierce..and he had his voice raised..i chld feel my voice starting to quiver..and i ended the call knwing that if the conversation continued, i'll start to tear and cry. questions start floodin my mind..am i being too pampered in the past all along that i cant take any slightest nonsense or wad? sigh..or izit that i've been single or rather not serious in the past few r/s that i cant stand any nonsense? confused..sigh..whats goin on?..

all along, things are going accordin to the way i want..the way pple treats me etc..frm family to r/s to friends..am i really too pampered? sigh...oh well..

just received a sms frm dear apologising.."Sorry if i really raise my voice maybe too stress recently dun be angry ok my dear" :(

dear dear, me just wanna u to knw that no doubt the period of time we are together isnt long, i wont leave you or anything de. i knw that i give you this feeling that i aint stable but that doesnt mean anything. i really treasure you and the times we spend together. i wanna be part of your life, to share and to go through everything together with you. wanna be the ONE there for you to go through thick and thin. theres alot of things that i dunno but i'll learn de.
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*written this afternoOn*

my blog is starting to grow mushrOoms already!!~~ muahahahaha..been left untouch for quite some time already. haben had the time to update it. keke. and my last entry was a week+ ago!! muahaha..lets see..its finally Friday already..yet another week has pass..everyday is like passing so fast..time is so little..and im getting older!!! muahaha..

well well, what can i sae..going through many of changes..basically with my own life..come to think of it, a month ago, things that i'll think of will be stuff like where to head to for the weekends, which club has special DJs,the latest trends in fashion and IT, what to get and buy blah blah blah..but now, its actually planning on how much to save monthly to order to save up the amt for the future blah blah blah. din expect that i'll be at this stage at this time. keke. something that i've nia tot of before at all~~ whldnt knw if its good or bad or anything like that but ultimately, its something that all girls will have to and want to go through bah. keke.

lets see..went over dear's plc during the weekends. talk and watch tele etc..simple 2 lovely dovey life..keke..was over in town on Sat afternOon and saw the 2 finalist guys for Sg Idol..duNno their names muahahaha..in the 1st plc, i nia even watch the show lor..only watch the first few episodes and no more liao..hurhurhur

over at Cineleisure's rocky with juan and dear..keke..

went over for my chocobites drink!!! yummy~~ slurps..

sleEpy me~~

the Sg idols getting boring..~~~

met up with juan over at Tiong Bahru on Sun for makan and went home. somehow in a way or another, conversation over dinner with family was something abt marriage. muahaha..hmm..and mummy said that its abt time for me to bring home if im really serious..hurhurhur..told dear abt it..muahaha..worked out and eventually decided that dear will come over next Sun..if everything goes well..all busy..weekdays me n dear will be wrking..weekends mummy wrking etc..hard to coordinate the right time..so i suppose next sun will be good. this weekend is totally packed.

at times, also duNno how describe my darling. he's really sweet and nice to me. keke. like on wed, while i was in the office, i smelt my colleague eating beehoon. was on the like with him and told him that i have the urge to eat beehoOn. talked for awhile n continued with my stuff. guess wad? he coOked for me!!!! just when i told him i felt like eating~~ kekekeke...

before heading hOme after the delicious beEhoOn..muahahaha..

shld be going over Mona's plc to get my nails done tml as Sun is my grandparents' bdae!!! so basically im only left with Sat..and i wanna leave my Sat for dear and friends~~ no doubt me n dear like meet up everyday lah!! keke..shall go catch a movie tml..*hopefully lah*...since day 1 we together, have been saying abt going for movies but till now nia go!!! jialat lah..hopefully tml can lah..muahahaha..

15.09.2006 (Friday)
dear made me so angry that day!!! die die also must blog this up and make him guilty!!! muahaha..its exactly a week liao lor..hurhurhur..now even thinking of it still makes me a little angry..*hmphx*..but shall not elaborate much here lah..afterall, must give him some face also lor..hurhur..i was so angry that i din feel like talking to him lah..neither did i feel like mzging him etc..hurhurhur..that silly guy sent be a bouquet of flowers to apologise etc..hmmm..but that doesnt mean i wasnt angry after that..its 2 total different matters lor..hurhurhur..its basically the 3rd bouquet of flowers..the first 2 bouquets were sweet..but the 3rd..*blehx* :p aniwae, he already learnt his lesson..and promised me that it wont ever happen again.. :x