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Saturday, October 14, 2006
1:56 AM

sitTing in front of my cOm not knwing wad to do to make time pass faster..my com states 1:51am..i shld be sleEping at this point of time..its a Friday nite..or rather Sat morning..its quiet..can only hear my typing sound, the com ruNning and the fan + my dadDy's fish tank. other than that..its quiet..like this kinda quietneSs..serenity..hmm..calms a person down alot and alLows you to have deEp thoughts in alot of matters. bEen a long time since i can last enjoy such a kinda mOod already..*endulge*

had a liTtle arguement with dearie this afternOon..mostly about not able to see eye to eye other certain isSues..hmm..suPpose we're both streSs out with wrk bah..recently..oh well..i seEm to be having my mOod swiNgs..and it seEms to be getTing bad each time..im starting to retreat myself agaIn..i can feEl it..stArting to keEp everytHing to myself agAin..siMply jusT dUn feEL like sayIng anyThing muCh or giVing commeNts..wOnder how loNg i'll be liKe tHat thIs tIme rouNd..coX i kNW that i caNt drAw awAy fOr tOo Long a period of tiMe..it aInt fair for aNyone at all..not evEn myself..i guEss im just toO tired froM wrk etc. its drAiniNg me awAy..maKing me fAde away from my liFe..

I M F A D I N G . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

juSt feEL like plOnging intO my owN darK worLd aGaiN and reSt..dO nothIng and thInk of noThing but reSt fuLLy..tAke a breAk frOm wrK..etC..giVe mySelf some tiMe n spAce..and thInk of whEre thIS carEer will leAd me to..

loOking forWard to my yr eNd triP..at leAst gurAnteEd abOut a weEk awAy frOm wrk..kakAkAka..

waIting fOr deArie to reaCh hOme and caLL me..his ceLLphone Died on hiM..daMn it..

itS now 2:04am stated at the bOttOm right coRner of my CompUter scReEn....

my PerFeCt LifE-`.