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Wednesday, November 01, 2006 managed to talk to our newly mummy Siang Hie yst..din have the chance to talk to her since her baby was born..hurhurhur..she sounds tired..but chld sense the joy frm her voice..keke..we're gonna buy presents for her and her bB!! the hamper will be delivered over to her plc..and see one of the weekends, we shall go over to see her n her bB!! so excited lor..hurhurhur..its been a long time since i last see a new born bB..esp from my surrounding friends. have a few colleagues who just gave birth..Lynn just came back frm her maternity..Benny's child turn 1mth recently..and nw,Siang Hie. been hearing so much abt parenthood etc. gosh..envy and also scared...envy in a sense that frm hearin the wae they describe the whole process..its really something that only when u're in that situation then u will be able to experience..that kinda joy..hmmm..but a little fear as well..cox its a totally new experience!!! hmm..i guess its true that u wont be able to predict whats gonna happen the next moment of your life..hurhurhur..for example, like in the past, i used to detest office job so muchie..but now, im actually in one and dun feel anything real bad abt it!!! and also in the past, i've never tot of getting into a proper n serious r/s..to me, r/s were like just the feel..once the feel is gone..basically, thats the end of the r/s..or either that, to me, i make sure that the person im with wont last more than a mth!!*sounds dumb but true..that i actually label a time spam for it* a mth in a sense that its long enough for 2 pple to enjoy the sweet moments together and short enough to get hurt*. and to think that i used to be in a 'no-future' r/s..hoping that somehow in a way or another get something outta it*wilful thinking n wish*..and ended up hurting my parents so much and causing strain btw me n my family..i drifted away from them..and still in my own state of blOOdy mind that i aint in any wrong to be in that kinda r/s..damn :( but now, being with dearie changed my concept towards r/s. we're now getting to knw each other deeper..building our solid base together..and most importantly, making plans for our future. it brings me to another level of life. im starting to take my life seriously..everything in it and everything abt it. listening n taking opinions into considerations..hearing frm the elderly abt their lifes and learning from them. having little plans here and there abt marriage. the ultimate thing that all girls hope for when they were little girls. marriage to me in the past was nothing more than a piece of paper that just in case anything were to happen, everything get splits accordingly. but now, come to think of it, this kinda concept is a total No-nO~~ marriage is a commitment..a bond that binds a couple together. something to bring the couple to a next level of life and their r/s and make plans for a family and start learning everything all over again..not learning alone but TOGETHER. instead of one, it becomes two. u knw that u'll never be alone to face anything. you knw that u'll have someone by ur side no matter what happens. i want to have a family just like how my parents brought me up. i see my parents as my role and model. and i believe that me n dearie will be able to do it..and we're both wrking together hard and hand in hand towards this little goal of mine. went to watch The Covenant in the evening..nice show..worth watching..go watch!!~~ my PerFeCt LifE-`.  |
