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Saturday, December 08, 2007
1:57 PM

haiz..still feeling alittle pisst even though he jux called me..sigh..asked me wad time i finish wrk n he'll come to pick me up..was angry with him for the past few daes..cox he's like so god damn busy that he doesnt have time for me..and somehow, i guess i've bottled all my feelings up abt this unhappiness that it kinda exploded..hurhurhur..he chldnt be sure with me if he's meetin me todae cox he had some ads going on todae..can only confirm with me in the morning..mzged him in the morning n he did reply but when i called him abt 15min ago..his hp was off!!!! then i mzged him and said that i'll go ahead with my own plans..then he called bk abt 10min later..saeing that he's coming to pick me..oh well...

maybe its something wrong with me..maybe i should change me attitude towards things..but then, i still do have this fobia frm the past..that if i cant find my bf or something like that, i'll presume that he's outside doing something bad..hurhurhur..knw it sounds pathetic..but then again..i've went through those kinda shit thing that i dun ever wanna go thru it again!!!! therefore, i have this kinda fobia..sigh..

its not that i dun trust him..somehow, i simply dun have that much confidence anymore..things are different now..n hw i see things esp after the op n all..haiz..its the fact that im sick n all..n im glad that he's accepting it n so is his family..parents n siblings are all good to me..alwax asking hw im feeling n making sure that i eat etc..n during the times if i nia go over his plc for quite some time, his mummy will ask if we aint together liao or wad etc..cute isnt it..hahaha..

oh well..should keep the best mood as im offing wrk in like 50min time frm nw..and its a weekend..and he's coming dwn soon..hurhurhur...

asked him wad he's gonna get me for my bdae..n he simply said a ring..^_*...then i showed him my fingers n asked if hes realli gonna get me one..where m i suppose to wear it..hahaha..idiot i knw..but cox my left fourth finger, im wearing the ring that he got me recently n my right fourth finger, im wearing our couple ring..hahaha..so..i also duNno leh..keke..n the wae he saes it, its kinda like shooting out frm the mouth n nt thinking..hahaha..its oggie..i shall be patient n wait to see wad he's gonna give me..aniwae, my bdae is like just 5 more daes to go!!! hahaha..

Jia's parents came to visit me yst..n the cutest thing was auntie called me earlier n asked me wad milk i was drinking..then i asked her why she asked n she told me that cox she needed calcium etc..so she wanna tk the brand that im taking..but the thing is, the milk im taking nw its more for gaining weight..proteins etc..hahaha..and even told her to drink anlene for calcium..hahaha..only to knw in the end, when she came over she bought 3 small tins of the milk cox the big tins are all outta stock!!! hahaha..they stayed for abt an hr before leaving..talked abt life etc n asked why neither me nor my parents inform them abt my stay..daddy explained that i was alrite..nothing serious n he din wanna bother them..hurhurhur..

yawnz...im sleepy..counting dwn to my off wrk ltime.. *poOfz*..

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