oh well..lets see where i shld start..seriously speaking. my brains aint wrking beri well nw..considering the time now..which is 1.03am..just got home like sae 1/2hr ago..was out with Kor and one of his fren,Weiming..went marina square, then dwn to serangoon garden, chomp chomp for dinner and then, went to have weiming's car washed and headed bk to esplanade!! wakaka..wanted to just find a plc to chill out..and so, we ended up at 7atenine..hurhurhur..think it'll be a frequent hang out for me n kor liao..hurhurhur..the atmosphere is good etc...

oggie..i loOk damn tired in this pic as you all can see..and see my eye bags!!~~ OMG...didnt sleep well last nite..in fact, i think i hardly slept..was on the line till 2+am with kor then mind was occupied with lotsa stuffx..wOke up pretty early this morning...sigh...

this came free..hmm..nt too bad...hurhurhur..the pic at the bottom is the dip for it..some wasabi thingy...but u can hardly taste it lah..hahaha...

i missed you so much..u know..i called and smsed you but no replies at all..i guess u shld be sleeping since u woKe up early this morning to attend a fren's ROM..sigh....and till nw, i still dun get ur replies at all...

managed to talk to u online for a short while this afternoon but Kor was over at my plc and we were suppose to head out together...was waiting for ur reply..oh well...

on XMAS - 25 dec..went over larling's plc over at ard 6+pm..cox the nite before which was when i was celebrating my xmas at home, told him that i'll go over the following dae cox it was too late liao..on 24th..heez..so i went over..and we watched Zach & Mari make a porno..not too bad..kinda funny..and watched over shows tOo..did sleep for awhile too cox he was too tired liao...one thing i like about larling..and hp rang afew times while we were resting..i had to 'crawl' over the other end of the bed to take my cell, he was hugging me then and u can feel that he didnt want to let go..and i had to tell him that i go ans a phone call then he let go..silly him..its not as though i will run away or disappear..subsequently..we ordered Mac in like the middle of the nite..and can u imagine..when larling called at ard 12+, Mac actualli told him to call back an hour later due to overwhelming!!!~~~ kaoz..and so, bo bian lor..we waited..hurhurhur..larling can realli eat lah!!! i think he has not only worms in his tummy lor..but snakes lah!!! he ate the mega big mac and also like near 2packs of fries lor!!! n i was there trying to stuff the double cheese into my tummy..hurhurhur..in the middle of the nite, im not that a big eater lah...hurhurhur..and he kept making fun of me!!!!~~ he knew that i cant stand it when u do anything to my ears..its damn freaking sensitive and when he knew it, he kept singing into my ears!!! its realli into it directly lor!!!~~he started on my left ear..and then after tat, said he wants to balanced it, n did it to my right ear tOo!!!! that kinda sensitivity, its let sending it all the wae dwn ur spine those kinda thing lor..kept singing 'only you' bit by bit..and then some other rubbish things too...laughed and laughed and said that im beri cute.. -_-"""" i realli buai tahan him lor..he actualli made me laughed so much that i was like sweating lor..hahahahaha..but hes such a darling too..toOk tissue and wet tissue to wipe me dry..hahaha..so that i wont be so sticky lah..hahaha..and also helped me loOk for games to put into my hp..funny ringtones too..buahahaha...and we ended up playing CSI together..till morning then i went home..heez...realli enjoyed every moments spent with him...its nice and simple and most importantly, comfy.....

24 dec..XMAS eve...everyone came over in the end, cox it started pouring again at like 7pm..hurhurhur...lucky thing, sis in-laws prepared curry and bee hoon and we also had green bean soup and Nancy and jia prepared sushi etc...we had fun toO..despite not being able to have our BBQ as original plan...toOk lotsa pics but i picked and choose to upload them here...hurhurhur..played games arranged by sis..everyone toOk part in it..had lotsa fun and laughter etc etc...hahaha...

Sis, thanks for the games and everything!!! and in fact, thanks to everyone for making everyone enjoy their xmas celebrations~~~~

oh well..to sum up my long weekends, since its ending like tomorrow..i had a great time on both xmas eve and xmas..managed to spend it with my love ones..enjoyed every part of it..

larling..i know you'll never get to read this, but i still wanna sae..thanks for everything..thanks for giving me that kinda feeling that i've been searching for..the kinda of care and simple attentions etc etc...i know i cant ask for anything much but i realli hope that it can remain and not like wad happen previously..cox, to be honest, i had no idea wad exactly happened..for the drift apart etc..i want everything to be like it is..like over the past week..i dun want it to end...i cant afford to lose you at all..i realli cant...i have no idea how u feel towards everything but at least, this is how i feel...

dearie smsed me just now when i was with Kor and said that he read my blog about this guy giving me a hug etc...n also said that we are drifting apart..and that the r/s might end even before we both know it or something like tat...seriously, i did try to salvage the r/s when i realised that there was a little something wrong with it..but then, its like alot of things take 2hands to clap..when i wanted to do something about it..it was only a one sided thing..then i got tired of it and din wanna bother liao..then u come and let me knw this kindaa thing...im just a simple girl who wants simple things..and these simple things are the things u cant give me now...i gave you chances..but u alwax give me the feeling that you are taking me for granted and things you tell me doesnt seem to tally at all..i ever asked you if is there anything you are lying to me, but u kept insisting 'No'..when i know it every well that its a 'Yes'...im just giving you chance after chance to change lor...its tiring..but i dun wanna let go either..cox i know it'll hurt us both badly..im just waiting...waiting for you to change...