went for movies yesterdae..keke...watched 'Hangover'...freaking funni lor...definately a show that can make u laugh like throughout lor...both me n bOo were like laughing near non stop lah...watched it together with Kris & fren, jun and Alvin..and we all toOk the Director's seat over at Eng Wah..bOo likes the seats there..lol...catched the 725pm show...when he told me tat he wanted tat timing...i asked him a couple of time whether or nt, sure can make it mah?..keep telling me can...then the best part was at like 520pm*10min to our off wrk*..we went into the meeting room for meeting -_-"" had to wait for him till like 550pm lor...then we headed dwn Suntec directly..Sis and everyone were all there already...n i had my bubble tea!!!~~~ tsk tsk...while walking towards the theatre, he asked if i wanted to drink it..* we were approaching the bubble tea shop*...keke...cant deny that he realli knws me well and takes the effort to remember my likes and dislikes...

and after the movie, we headed dwn Beer station..wanted to go over Villa Bali but was full liao...ate some things there..chatted and left ard 11+ pm...and as usual, he sent me home before heading home..

oh well..hes off for his review and then heading home straight away..therefore, wont be seeing him thruout this whole entire weekend..hmm..guess, i'll miss him bah...

aniwae, its the mth of aug tml..and come to think of it, 2yrs back, on 1 Aug 2007, was the day i was hospitalised..that very nite, when mummy found out something wasnt beri right with me..it was a wednesday...cox tat time, mummy used to have wed as half day..still remember havig dinner with her..hmm...2yrs back, Aug was a scary mth for me and everyone...freaked everyone i know outta their entire lifes...lol...this is how fast time passes...2yrs back, at this point of time, im like struggling for my life, n now, here i m, sitting in my company table, infront of my com..typing my life away...wakakakaka...happily chit chatting with my colleagues...getting in n out of love etc etc etc...

happen to read Sis's blog earlier this morning and read the r/s btw jun and Alvin...hurhurhur...so reminds me of me n David now...hurhurhur...we are no longer together in status, but he still treats me like before...even more caring now i would sae...now, he takes the efforts to listen to my grumbles at wrk etc etc..when in the past, he doesnt want to...and now, he take the effort to accompany to plcs i wanna go etc etc...is this the saying...'only treasuring it when u lost it?',..lol...i hav no idea what will become of us in future, no idea if i shld give it another try or wad, its like afterall, we were together for near 3yrs...

but then again..how abt bOo?...last nite, b4 i slept, he text me..'Juz wondering.. Do u have anything tht u wanna tell me?...'at like 1.04am...hurhurhurhur...told him 'no'...then he told me to go sleep and told me that hes gonna sleep le..his reply at like 1.26am was 'U also sleep earlier bah... Suddenly feel moody..anyway, nitez~' the thing is...even if i had anything in mind, its usualli jam at the back of my throat lor...theres like so so so many things i wanna tell him but yet seem so impossible to let him know...it would be like so unfair..i dun wanna break wadever we share right now...the wae i feel towards him is like hw i feel towards larling cupid...the feeling is so unique...his every concern touches me deeply..but yet, its like so impossible for us...

im thinking of lettin it go...letting the whole thing go before i fall deeper...or shld i give it a shot?..to ask everything out once and for all?...better to lose it knwinly for the ans than to lose it to nothing?...im totalli confused now~~~ :S

found some quotes kinda meaningful...

How deeply did you learn to let go?