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Wednesday, March 24, 2010   hmm...the mood im feeling now...im more of in a lost...i dunno my actual feelings now..m i like just covering up hw i realli realli feel deep dwn and simply just potraying a look tht im suppose to show out nw or wad?... was terrible..we finalli had our conversation yst..n i finalli told him things tht have been hidding in me for a long time...i cried in his arms...was already controlling it hard already, but eventualli i guess i chldnt take it any longer n simply just broke down..he hugged me tight..din sae anything n just waited for me to talk..told him everything..of hw i felt and stuff.. =x n in rtn, he told me things as well..the committment he has over that side and stuff like tht...its good to know tht he doesnt wanna lose me as well..tht im somehow impt to him too..tht im the 1st person whom he can relate to and realli talk abt any n everything..and its also touching to know tht he'll alwax wanna be ther for me in terms of everything and anything... i know tht i myself cant bare to lose him..after the conversation last nite, it was a long chat..couple of hours...abt everything..n at least, i get a clearer picture now... n now, im more like standing at the cross junction..thinking of which wae to head to..i told him straight yst tht i wanna let him go, cox its too much for me to bare..tht i realli chldnt take it any longer...he doesnt wanna lose me either and ask me, how will he be able to find someone like me.. :S told him to just enjoy the rest of the week tgt and then, after he goes for his holidaes, i can also tk that time to think things thru..told him tht when he comes bk then we settle it, then he kept asking me, then wad will happen when he comes bk.. we face each other everydae in the office..n asked me does tht mean, its solely on wrk already, nthing else?..oh well...tht was also one of the things i tot of, tht we'll still face each other at wrk n stuff like tht... i just wanna take the time when hes not around to realli think things over...if i realli wanna let him go mah...im confused... we bought the cheesecake he wanted to eat over at bakerzin yst..din get to eat it, so he brought it to wrk today.. CheeeonG says: brought de cheesecake ALL de way from tampines JUZ FOR U wo.... then kena say summore .... then want me die also cham le... [b][c=4]•°ღ♥ღ 婷 婷 ღ♥ღ°• ♂ [/c][/b] (｡◕‿◕｡) LIFE is NEVER fair..get used to it!!!...nothing is real till it's gone.. says: hanar hanar, sayang u the most liao lah kk the cheesecake, we were suppose to eat it last nite, but somehw jux forgot CheeeonG says: shall wait n see if sayang really comes into reality eh... lol [b][c=4]•°ღ♥ღ 婷 婷 ღ♥ღ°• ♂ [/c][/b] (｡◕‿◕｡) LIFE is NEVER fair..get used to it!!!...nothing is real till it's gone.. says: n u r craving for it? lol wads wrong lah, baby? CheeeonG says: yea... it was an interestin topic we had last nite [b][c=4]•°ღ♥ღ 婷 婷 ღ♥ღ°• ♂ [/c][/b] (｡◕‿◕｡) LIFE is NEVER fair..get used to it!!!...nothing is real till it's gone.. says: u knw u'll alwax be my baby~ CheeeonG says: mariah carey eh?.. [b][c=4]•°ღ♥ღ 婷 婷 ღ♥ღ°• ♂ [/c][/b] (｡◕‿◕｡) LIFE is NEVER fair..get used to it!!!...nothing is real till it's gone.. says: ehx, yea arh buahahaha but then again, i do mean my above statement alrite like i said yst, to just enjoy the next few daes like in the past CheeeonG says: n i do meant all i said last nite... oh well... shall juz see wht happen next... haha [b][c=4]•°ღ♥ღ 婷 婷 ღ♥ღ°• ♂ [/c][/b] (｡◕‿◕｡) LIFE is NEVER fair..get used to it!!!...nothing is real till it's gone.. says: hw do u wan things to happen? if given a choIce? CheeeonG says: only i will know... haiya... these kinda things.... if there is this option then only think about it... oh well..told him earlier on tht i dun wanna let him go..but in actual fact, i aint too sure myself...i knw tht things might not be the same for us both already.. im in a delimna now :S its hurts to see ur reaction last nite when i told u i wanna let u go, u simply kept quiet, shut ur eyes down n cover them with ur hands...i din knw wad u were thinking of tht time... i told u b4, if u cant make tht decision, then i'll do it for u... ultimately, just wanna apologise if i did hurt u in a wae or another..im sorrie... yOu are tHe ONLY thinG it woUld HurT mE tO LoSe... :( please show me a sign... its hurts..more than u ever know... will be catching the "how to train your dragaon" with him tonite over at Cineleisure...hmm..we happen to pass by the other dae n show this push cart selling the braclet thts like pretty nice..leather kind...n he wans to get it..so do i actualli :) listenin to this song now tht i think suits my mood BIG time... 作曲:陈文华作词:杜鑫 演唱:蔡健雅 孙燕姿 拥抱的时候心情有点痛 也去提早感受到寂寞 离开的时候只听见沉默 除了沉默我还能怎么做选择 别对我抱歉别总觉得对我亏欠 现在他在你的身边就对他好一点 不要再让你们的爱败给了时间 既然遇见了永远就不要说再见 不要再让你们的爱输给了永远 我们经过那么多考验 最后还是回到了原点 总有那一天相遇的瞬间 确定那些冷漠的从前已走远 别对我抱歉别总觉得对我亏欠 现在谁在你的身边就对谁好一点 我应该就走开就算感情还在 我应该就放开对他不再依赖 忘了曾有过的片段 这是属于你们的未来 不要看到你们的爱败给了时间 我能愿选择离别没有一句怨言 直到你能若无其事聊起了从前 我才发现彼此都了解 默契是最宝贵的语言 the bold part is soooo true isnt it?... :/ my PerFeCt LifE-`.  |
