im in one of my lowest mood nw...no idea why at all...no doubt im wearin my new lens *since its the beginnin of the mth* my eyes still doesnt feel good..its my office lah..when im out or wad, this doesnt happen at all...have this stingy feeling tht cause my eyes to redden..in the mornin, ms chua still tot i cried...lol..silly her...oh well...got lotsa things to do at wrk, but jux totalli not in the mood to do at all...

in fact, i like cant wait for my Jiu Zai Gou holidaes to reach..chua was still mentioning yst over lunch tht theres only like 3weeks before i go...n i had a shock..no idea im leaving tht soon...n nw, i cant wait to leave...

its not wrk or wad thts killing me...its seeing him tht making me feel like dying...esp after wad i saw over at FB*still wasnt tht bad*, but esp after talking to ah bu just now...the things he goes round telling everyone..in short, at times, cant help but feel tht hes like a fucktard..its like yes i knw our status, but the thing is, u dun have to go round telling others other things rite?..makes me pisst off n hurt when i heard tht lor...i nearly teared after wad ah bu told me lor...haiz...makes me lOok like im realli a bitch or wad lor...im like pushing myself towards him kinda thing..haiz~~ totalli hav no comments liao...i guess, its realli time already..

when talking over msn last nite, i asked him if he felt tht im like throwing tantrums at him, n he replied me with, since u know tht u r doing such things, then why still ask him. then i asked him back why doesnt he mentioned anything abt it..then he replied me with, he knws tht i'll tell him eventualli when i want to..true to a certain extend..

we have been drifting apart alot..esp after when he's taking over alot of many other things..right now tht he's wrk is picking up, n when phang just join, he'll need at least 3mths before everything can settle dwn and all..by then, i dun think anything will be the same already...esp with the wae things are now, the wae im treating him n etc..

its hurts..but hurts even more when i knw tht i've fallen for him n knw its a one wae thing..it sux big time lor...the things tht he goes telling everyone, its like im slapping my own face kinda thing..

this thur, we'll be watching movie tgt..sitting tgt, company event..maybe tht'll be the last movie watched tgt...

some pics to upload...taken last thur when i went out shopping with mummy..only both of us, cox daddy went to meet his frens...taken over at centerpoint TCC..took a rest there before heading home..hurhurhurhur..and after taking the pics, i realised tht i have my daddy's eyes~~ lol...

we ate this..for fun...lol..

our drinks..

mummy~~

and ad hoc pic..guess this will also be the last time i'm uploading something given by him..

Kris sis gave birth on Vesak day!!! and we went over KKH to see her n my niece..

isnt she an angel~~ loOks pretty isnt it...congrats sis~~ if u happen to read this..tsk tsk...

i spent my long weekends rotting and nt sleeping much..hurhurhur..thur after going shopping with mummy..*bought a 3/4 pants for wrk..ahahaha*

guess wad?..i slept at like near 5am lah~~ was watching spanglish over cable..nice show though..by the time the show ended, was like 4+am already..was actualli thinking shld i continue to watch tele or not..ahahaha..but scared mummy scold..lol..best part, i forgot to off my hp alarm, woke up at 720am.. :/ darn...

fri nite, slept at 3am..had to wake up early on sat mornin to go over USS*will post another post on tht*..slept near 1am tht nite...hurhurhur...

oh well...will be meetin elayne over at Suntec later for a couple of drinks and also to update her on everything..im tired of everything...literally....haiz....