im into the mid week of the 1st week of April already..its wednesday todae n office is darn quiet todae~~ lol...no idea why but its jux peaceful...no drillins, no renovation...im like hearing my my keyboard drowning the rest of the other pple talking or whispering...talking abt wrk and in the midst of discussion...

soooo sleepy :S hurhurhur...slept at 12+, woke up all of a sudden at 1+am...isit jux me or have u guys also face the same issue as me. its like, despite saeing that i wont wait up for steven, i usualli end up waiting..till the time i buai tahan, then i will like just fall asleep BUT yet, cant fully fall asleep...will still wake up in the middle of the nite to check my hp, seeing if hes home or wad.... =/

silly rite?..end up, following day, feelin like a piece of rack..tired...tryin hard to open your pathetic eyes and even the lens tht u r wearing* those with a much bigger diameter* doesnt seem to be of much use already...lol....

its like i jolly well knw tht thts his lifestyle n tht even goin home early, he doesnt hv anything to do, therefore, he'll rather stay out n etc...but at least, lucky me i shld sae, till now, hes still faithful n have yet to lie to me..told me tht he went playing billiard with frens yst, n when i apps him asking him wher he was, he took a pic of himself n showed it to me...lol..with the background of his fren, Tian Yong and tht BIG billiard table... then again, its not tht i dun trust him, i do infact...but i tot i was the one tht alwax likes to run outside...right nw, i found my opponent!!! lol..

sorrie for the lag of photos..everything is in my iphone n im blogging from office, i din install itune into this com, therefore, nt able to take the pics out..hurhurhur..or im jux an idiot when it comes to IT stuffs...pics tht i wanna upload, i gotta like send them over to my email then save each pic in order to upload them here...in which the entire process is tedious!!!! hurhurhur..therefore, for more pics, please go view my FB kk...my FB is like pretty updates abt my life..esp when im bored or anything like tht...hiak hiak hiak..

aniwae, so far so good i would sae if i had to sum up the r/s btw us nw...a mth+ only...hurhurhur..maybe still in honeymoon period?...lol...spends like most of our weekends tgt whenever possible..n this week, so far, i've yet to meet him, or rather, we've yet to meet up~~ lol...he had appt till pretty late on Mon, and yst, he asked if wanna catch a movie mah, but i was just tired..din sleep well on mon nite...due to some dammmmmnnnnnnnnnn pathetic issues...lol *takes own head n bang it against the wall* n guessed wad, i actualli went to kpo in his ex-gf's FB...lol..apparently, she doesnt set her wall to private, but then again, can see tht she isnt tht a big user of FB...nt much stuff inside..

even knowing almost like near everything of their past, i still cant help but feel jealous lor...*n yes, i am*..i knw its surprising tht i'll actualli feel this wae, but i m lah!!! WTF rite~~~ therefore, Shut The Fuck Up and dun laugh or make any comments hor... =x

told him via apps yst n he told me tht i shldnt even mind abt it as its both our past and did sortta like talked me outta it but then hor, seriously, when i read those apps, y do i hv this feeling tht hes like screwing me?...i knw im damn bad at interpretations lah~~ n he alwax feels tht app-sing, the actual feelin will be misinterpretated...which apparently, i guess in this case, its again the same..aniwae, but i just cant help it lah!!!!~~ i even told sis lor...tht i actualli had tht toopid thinking much earlier on when he told me tht she wrks like jux opposite me*she happens to wrk at Charles & Keith*~~ then beginning cox he comes and pick me up as n when he can...for tht split second, after knwing, i actualli have tht feeling tht he comin to pick me, was it hoping to be able to bump onto her or something like tht? the fact tht they were tgt for soooooo long lah, n im sure ladies, somehw in a wae or another, u'll definately have the same feel as me de lor...

aft my op, i realli lost all the confidence i used to have...n maybe age is catching up too~~ its nt tht i dun trust him or believe him..its just me =( n this is realli how pathetic i am lor.. NOW... i miss the old me....wher has she gone to?...

*lets out a big sigh*

this mornin, i hitched a free ride to work...buahahaha... Lester..my office fedex guy..sent me to wrk...buahahaha...for those who has been talkin to me, shld knw who the hell he is lah~~ n for those who doesnt knw...keep u in suspense 1st lah~~ lol..

gotta end here liao....buahahahah...will update soon =)